I had my second acupuncture session on Wednesday. When I first came in, my acupuncturist felt my pulse and got very excited. She said that I was already more fertile and that I would get pregnant quickly. I am choosing to believe what she says.
This time I had a few more needles stuck in me and it seemed as though the acupuncturist stuck them in with a bit more conviction this time. It still didn't hurt, but I felt more of them going in this time around. Instead of burning the herbs over my stomach like last time, she put some needles in my back. I have no idea how she decides what to do each time, but I trust her.
Mary is extremely knowledgeable about Chinese Medicine and I have really connected with her. By this point, I've had experiences with lots of different doctors and nurses and specialists. While I felt each of them were knowledgeable, I never really connected with any of them. Mary has made me feel as if she truly cares about me. More than that, she has given me hope. Whether or not I end up getting pregnant with the help of acupuncture, Mary has given me the hope I desperately needed.
I also appreciate that she is the one to call the shots. When Adam and I met with other specialists, they always gave us lots of options. They told us we could try an IUI or an IUI with Clomid or this test or that test. I felt like we were the ones making important medical decisions and I didn't really have the knowledge to make those decisions. I know having control over medical decisions is important to a lot of people. But at this point, I just wanted someone to tell me what to do. Mary has done that for me.
She told me what she was going to do and what I needed to do. She told me how often I needed to come do acupuncture treatments. She told me what herbs and supplements to take. She took all the decision-making pressure off of me.
She also told me not to worry and that she would help me. Countless people have told me not to worry. But for some reason, I believed Mary when she told me not to worry. It's as if something has clicked in my brain and I turned over my worry to her. Who knows how I'll feel in a month, but for now I'm at peace and full of hope.